Fight or Flight?

In response to The Daily Post’s writing prompt: “Fight or Flight.”

Write about your strongest memory of heart-pounding, belly-twisting nervousness: what caused the adrenaline? Was it justified? How did you respond?Auckland, New Zealand

This is a topic I do not think I have covered here…….phobias, fears etc. So here goes. I suffer from Vertigo, I didn’t as a kid, it only started when I was an adult; get me more than a few feet off the ground and I get very dizzy, the world starts to spin and I frequently black out. Even watching those dizzying swooping helicopter shots in film and such on TV has the same effect. As a result I do not really like heights! People ask me “then how do you get on an airplane?” to them it makes no sense, but to my brain my feet are on solid floor (as long as I don’t look out the window), so vertigo doesn’t take hold. I don’t like flying much either, but I can cope. I push the fear factor aside, I used to think OMG it could crash and I might die……I guess death no longer scares me so much.

After my illness last year, I decided that I would not let anything stand in my way, even my fear of heights and my vertigo, I mean what was the worst that could happen? OK I still cannot look straight down from heights, but I have found if I look out I still feel scared, but the vertigo doesn’t kick in. I have also discovered if I look through the viewfinder on my camera, my brain can’t seem to compute the height? Weird but I am sure there is some scientific explanation?

So I guess my answer to the above question is the last time was back in NZ at Sky City Tower, I stood in front of the window, next to the glass (looking back into the heart of the building not outside), but I was still terrified, my heart was pounding, my palms were sweaty, I was scared, but I stood and fought my panic, I do not want to spend my life in flight from things that make me scared. Sure I still have to take the Vertigo into consideration, but if I don’t look directly down I seem to be OK. While we were away I climbed mountains, stood at lookouts (OK so not right at the edge, but at least I looked), climbed skyscrapers, I even watched people Bungy jump (all through my view finder)! To some people this is not a big deal, but to me it is.

A few years ago, also on holiday Moth really wanted to go on a cable car up a big mountain, he knew it was a big ask, but I did it anyway. I had a scarf over my eyes, my sunglasses over that and a hat pulled down over my face, I sat in that cable car for 20 mins trying to block out everything and meditate. At one point we stopped and we were above the canopy of trees, you literally could not see the ground and Moth said “take a peak….it looks like we are only 2 feet off the ground” and he was right, I was terrified because I knew we must be high, but because of the trees I couldn’t tell HOW high, It was only for a few seconds; the scarf and glasses quickly went back on and I went back to meditating. I saw photos Moth took later and nearly had a heart attack at how high we were……….but I still did it…………I guess it must be true love!  But then maybe if it was true love Moth wouldn’t push me to do things I don’t like? LOL

– Julz

Eagles Live in Concert

In response to The Daily Post’s writing prompt: “Three Perfect Shots.”

This is a day late and possibly a bit of a cheat (none of these photos are mine), but I went to see The Eagles live in Concert with my very good friend, we had a blast and the band was fantastic………..so Three perfect shots;

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Good Friends

Good Venue - Rod Laver Arena, Melb. VIC

Good Venue – Rod Laver Arena, Melb. VIC

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Really Good Band

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Photos from Eagles Media

– Julz

Origins

In response to The Daily Post’s writing prompt: “Origin Story.”

Why did I originally start this blog? Where I was and where I am now?

I have written on this before, a time or two actually. But a lot has happened in such a short period of time. It’s hard to believe it’s only been 4 months, it feels so much longer. I was in a creative funk! It’s as simple as that. Whether I knew it at the time or not, I had been through an awful illness which forced me to re evaluate my life in so many different aspects. Made me prioritize various different parts in my life, and made me spend an awful lot of time with Myself.I didn’t really like who I had become. So I decided to make some changes. One set of ideas led to another, which in turn led to another, as these things do. While I was messing around with various creative processes, it was brought to my attention perhaps I should write a blog. Not long after I started out BloggingU101 and Photo101 Started, so I thought ‘Hey why not’ . And I learnt…….A LOT.

My world took on a new life of it’s own through partially my blog, I learnt a lot about myself and many others who share a similar history. It put me in contact and context with other artist who have inspired and urged me forward. I didn’t think when I wrote that first post that anyone would be interested. I was self conscious about my wishing to take photographs and thinking that I knew so little. I know most of you have similar stories, we all start a blog for various reasons and we usually seem to end up in a different place to where we started. I now passionately embrace photography and all it has to offer, it has extended the reach, capacity and breadth of my graphic design and creative focus.

I still occasionally get mired down in a creative funk………..I think we all do, but it was pointed out in another Jann Alexander’s post that I read today to embrace that funk and use it as a restorative break and not a self beat up for being lazy or unmotivated. There was also a post today  by Miss Understood, about being your own friend, in some ways it is silly but also profound; we should be comfortable in our own skin, be happy with our own company, and be a friend to oneself. If we don’t like our self, how can we expect other people to like us?

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– Julz

Cut off?

In response to The Daily Post’s writing prompt: “Cut Off.”

When was the last time you felt really, truly lonely?

This is a good question, but I guess I do not really have an answer, see I understand the difference between lonely and being alone, but I honestly cannot remember the last time I had either. I am surrounded by family, friends, co-workers, I never seem to get any down time; I’m always on the clock.

I used to feel lonely before I found my Soul Mate, Moth. I could often be surrounded by people and still I felt truly lonely, as I did not have the other ‘part’ of me. Since Moth and I have been together I do not think I have ever truly felt lonely, a little lost sometimes, but not truly lonely.

To be alone – I know this is something that some people hate the thought, but I cherish it. I never get an real me time. I am surrounded by Co workers during the day, I am surrounded by family when I get home, I have extended family and friends to catch up with. The only Me time I really get is first thing in the morning when I wake up (Moth has already gone for the day and the kids are still asleep) and the travel time in my car, which is usually taken up with tasks I have planned for the day. Occasionally I have an evening or few hours on the weekend to myself, if everyone at home is at work, but honestly it doesn’t happen very often, and even then I am never truly alone, I usually have these 2 at least following me around at all times.

Buddy and Chloe

Buddy and Chloe

-Julz

Narre Warren for next to nicks

In response to The Daily Post’s writing prompt: “Local Flavor.”

When in Narre Warren/ Berwick area, there are a few special spots to go, the locals all know them, but they are not necessarily spots visitors get told about.You could easily spend at least 1 if not 2 days here,there is that much to do! And the best part, most of these are free or quite cheap, you can spend money if you wish, but just turning up and wandering around costs next to nothing!

Wilson Botanical Park – very pretty spot to go for a walk, you can even take your dogs (as long as they are kept on a leash), feed the ducks etc, free entry.

The Campbelltown Miniature Railway fun for the whole family, rustic and basic, but a great spot for the kids (big and little) and an old fashioned picnic lunch. There are no fancy cafes or souvenir shops to lure children into spending money either. Free entry, train ride approx $6.00.

Akuna Park Market – held every Sunday, Trash and Treasure, fresh fruits and veg, bric a brac and craft wares, great spot to wander around on a Sunday Morning.

Old Cheese Factory Farmers Market – Once a month (usually 2nd Sunday of each month) they hold a Farmers Market at The Old Cheese Factory, all sorts of organic fruit & veg, jams & Pickles, bread, and cakes and all sorts of other goodies can be found.

Grant’s Picnic Ground – is a terrific little spot to go for a picnic or bush walk, there is native wild bird feeding (at a cost) as well, or sit back and watch other people feed the birds, quite entertaining as well.

Narre North Bakery – Best Sausage Rolls and Steak and Bacon pie in the area, good coffee too, as well as the usual raft of bakery items. At Christmas they make to order fabulous Gingerbread Houses and Christmas Cakes!

Myuna Farm – $7.00pp (under 1 free) pony and train rides additional. Public Community farm with all sorts of farm animals for kids to see. They also do Birthday Parties and Social Events.

Royal Botanic Gardens – Cranbourne, great spot to wander around for keen gardeners or photographers. Plenty to see and do

Charity Starts at Home

In response to The Daily Post’s writing prompt: “Think Global, Act Local.”

“Think global, act local.” Write a post connecting a global issue to a personal one.

There are so many issues globally; Ebola, starvation, war, famine, AIDS, homelessness, natural disasters (local and abroad), the very depths of humane depravity in some places. Where do you start, where does anyone start? However so many of these funds are not getting the money to people or hand over to save the poor, feed the homeless, rebuild houses, what ever. We send money over to some war torn country and the war lords take all the money, we send to some government so they can rebuild and they waste it. Someone out there is always trying to make me feel guilty for what I have, WHY? I have not always had an easy life either, OK so I am not starving, I am not under threat of death or war, but is it really my responsibility to continuously hand over money? Then I would have none and MY children would starve!

I am a good person, I help out where I can, but Charity Starts at home and I have my own bills and mortgage to pay, I have 2 children going through University. I am honest and hard working, I will help a friend in need. Is my Karma really dependent on how many charities I give money to? I know there are people out there who do more, who physically go to these ravaged and war torn countries and help out – they are to be admired for their generosity, but that is not for me.

I pay my taxes, and my government gives donations to help out countries in need. If there is a local disaster I donate clothes, blankets etc. I donate to the Red Cross and I donate to the Christmas CFA collection for the poor every year. I know this possibly makes me sound selfish, but with an every growing plant being over run with too many people and too many problems, why do I have to be made to feel guilty for not doing enough, or not doing more? I feel for some of these people, really I do, but when is enough, enough?

– Julz

Mummies for Mummy

In response to The Daily Post’s writing prompt: “Tourist Trap.”

What’s your dream tourist destination — either a place you’ve been and loved, or a place you’d love to visit? What about it speaks to you?

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I have also had a fascination with the Middle East, in particular Egypt & Jordan. I remember back when I was a kid, my school teacher went there for a holiday, she brought back lots of slides and we would have a slide presentation every week and she would talk about all the places she visited, the history, some of the culture; I was spell bound. I would happily sit and listen for hours, my class mates became bored and would groan when the time rolled around for another slide show. Not me, I longed for each glorious, colorful, imagination sparking episode. I guess I have been wanting to go ever since.

When I was at school I even wanted to become an archaeologist, just so I could visit and work there. But alas, I did not have the head for such studies and moved onto other areas. The longing still remains. I have come close of occasion, but have also been put off by the turbulence and strife in these areas. To walk through history, would be a dream come true for me.

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I have visited various different exhibits which have come to museums near me, I remember a few years back King Tuts artifacts came to Melbourne, I spent hours longingly looking at each piece on display. I was mere inches away from something he actually held, or member of his court or family. I was enthralled to be so close to living history.

1355258045_MummyI am fascinated with the ancient history and ghost stories or Mummies and Curses on the Pyramids and ancient tombs, I am not usually into horror movies, but I think I have seen almost all the Mummy once from Laurel and Hardie to Brendan Fraser! It’s spooky and weird and lots of fun, I know most of it is now explained away by Science, but I still adore it. I have a fascination with ancient civilizations from the region, their way of life, their culture, their Gods.  Even one of my all time favorite Sci-Fi TV Shows has it foundation in Ancient Egyptian Gods and Mythology – Star Gate SG1.

I cannot explain my being drawn to these places, and one day I do hope to visit. I would hate to be on my death bed and state the only regret I have is that I never went!

– Julz