Every week Desley brings us a new thought to ponder and contemplate from her KikkiK Journal;
The prompt I’ve chosen for this week is: What was the mood of the day?
My mood for today, is tired……….is that even a mood or just a state of being? I am happy and relaxed (for the most part – I’ll explain in a bit), I just spent a very enjoyable weekend with some friends in Warburton, Victoria. We have lots of fun and LOTS of laughs; laughter really is good for the soul isn’t it? I had just received some bad news I was in no way ready to accept and take on board and I just wanted to spend the weekend NOT thinking about it; selfish? Yes probably, but sometimes you just have to be.
We have just found out my Dad has MND, it’s a horrible debilitating disease with no cure and no real treatment. Dad lost his Mum to MND, nearly 30 years ago, they are no exactly sure if it’s hereditary, in fact they don’t really know all that much about it. My Grandmother wasn’t even diagnosed until after she died, at the time they just thought it was simply dementia (I think part of it was). So with Mum’s failing health, I now have Dad’s as well. My Brother (who I never see or speak to) is pretty much useless, and my health is not brilliant either, I certainly can’t do their housework (can barely do my own), I can’t help gardening and I certainly can’t help with bathing and such down the line, so we need to make some serious decisions and quite frankly I wasn’t ready to take it all on board.
So I guess my mood now is anxious and worried. When it gets a little much and I find myself tearing up, I think back on a funny moment from the weekend just past, and it certainly improves my mood. There is nothing like romping through a forest in the dark with torches whooping and yelling and laughing like a bunch of teens to make a pretty funny weekend. Some of it was ‘you had to be there moments’ and I don’t think I could explain if I tried, others were exhilarating and some just mere companionship. 4WD through Alpine Forest was fun and wandering through rain forests with cameras in hand, walking, looking, finding mushrooms, toadstools, waterfalls and moss frozen on trees was wonderful. Hunting for bargains in antique and junk stores, so much fun (I got a few bargains too). Dinners and late night story swapping with copious amounts of alcohol……was loads of fun too. Just being in each others company, walking forest trails and pointing out photographic delights. And then there was the light painting, pure thrill and joy.We don’t do a lot of light painting, we don’t have the tools or skill for some of it, but when you go away with two experts, it can be fantastic fun!
So I guess to some it up I am tired, happy, relaxed, anxious and sad…………..it’s funny how you can be so many things at once.
~ Julz
So sorry to hear about your Dad, Julz. How heartbreaking. I’m glad you were able to sort of switch off with a fun weekend away. The trip sounds amazing and lots of fun. Hugs to you xox.
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thanks, it sucks, but that’s life, no one ever said it was fair or forever. Sometimes we just don’t want to accept the truth. I think escaping from reality can be good for one’s soul 🙂
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I agree it is good to escape reality sometimes. Hope you can make done decisions m, it’s not an easy time.
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Oh dear…I’m sorry to hear your dad has MND. I read that it’s like ALS? I have a friend whose husband has it. He was a pro football player. Dunno if you feel like reading this but here it is if you want to https://www.yahoo.com/beauty/how-one-family-119386043957.html It’s such a terrible disease but Chie (the wife of the football player) and Steve are an amazing couple and a testament to love!
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Thanks
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Bug hug Julie
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🙂
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OMG that’s horrible……….my Dad was no pro footballer but he would never want to live like that.
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It really is sad but there is a beauty in it from what I see in their relationship. Footballer or writer or whatever…it’s such a difficult thing.
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it’s such a terrible disease, we watched my Grandmother go through it………it is soul destroying to most people, I am sure. I wish they could find a cure, or even something to help ease the condition. It robs people of so much.
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Oh my gosh. This has got to be heart wrenching. :(. I can’t imagine how you must feel. With all our modern marvels, medicine still hasn’t been able to cure these terrible diseases. 😦
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I know…..all the adverts on TV are good for publicity I suppose, but they keep reminding Dad what he’s got, make sit hard on him too
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Yeah :(((((((
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sorry I think I’m still in the angry phase
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Oh no worries Julie. I didn’t take your response negatively at all. I probably shouldn’t have sent that and thought of that afterward. Sometimes I don’t think things through. Please know that I’m very sorry about your dad.
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I know your heart was in the right place..sorry I lashed out and I glad you didn’t take it personally. Just hate this stupid disease
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Thank you Julie. I’ll say a prayer for your dad.
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I know how you feel about your parents as I am in a similar position to you. It is good for the soul to escape and just live in the moment. All the best for your father
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Thanks
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